Who Framed The Artist?

Is there a market for a visual journal? I have no idea nor knowledge of any gallery showcasing this kind of interest as of this writing. Then why would I still indulge into something that wont sell?  

   Financial gain definitely is a welcome add-ins if ever. BUT to divert my attention on something that would give me material increase instead of freely allowing my mind to create, will cloud my spirit.

   I have clearly defined and separate my artistic inclinations over artistic services. I do Face painting services and other projects that requires my talent for monetary gain BUT when it comes to my artistry, I do this purely out of LOVE. 

   This is a personal thirst I am quenching and nothing else. A deep sense of calling to share without exchange...I don't even expect some praises. But of course, I'll be a hypocrite to deny that I will not be hurt when somebody dislike my work. Anyway, so far the only non-appreciative remarks I get was when somebody said why I waste my time on visual manuscripts instead of making artwork that are framed and therefore exhibit them. 

   To answer the question: Why I waste time, resources, and effort on these manuscripts? The answer is: "Simply because..."

    When I don't expect any approval from outside forces I can manifest things more honestly, more sincere, and more creative. 

   I only want to enjoy this gift. 

What is a Visual Diary for me?

A Visual Manuscripts is a laboratory of personal experience...gathered on a minute detail randomness using whatever resources available or whatever life throws in front of me. 

Air Supply - Making Love out of Nothing at all

Building Inspiration

Since yesterday I've been trying to get inspired...I did not waited but created my inspirations. I pick a color pencil  and chose this time the manuscript "Stolen Moment".....to make as an ignition work as usual. Yes, these are what I called ignition pieces or starters...so I can build up a confidence or to be exact summoning enough energy to paint a thematic work.

   The usual process start with a couple of doodles and then sketch process until images are form...but it does not always appear as I wanted too...there are times when frustrations hit me. But I always, no I mean never discard them totally since they will still provide source for future explorations...

   I feel not being able to serve the purpose of my personal existence when I'm not creating an artwork...at least a simple sketch will suffice. So after hurdling some detour that only happens on my brain I made these two item below...

   Why portrait of women? It's the easiest connection I can do at this moment...but it is not always the case, I also browse and add items on my visual diaries for boost...often simultaneously....

   I think in a few hours or day I will have new inspiration coming. A painting worth sharing.

Deep Thoughts

   I found several articles that I am indulging myself now. Dipping my heads into nourishing insights from both sides of the spectrum. I need to balance all details since many false prophets are claiming to be inspired by God.

   Here are some sites that I have discovered with my surfing...

   christiananswer.net

   The Young Earth Club

     bible.org

   There are still other sites I must explore and at this time needed some thorough reading. I will not be able of course to grasp all these...instantly, therefore, without any conclusion...I'll just take whatever it is now...swallow? Not necessary but just gathering this info at the back of my head, as many as its accumulating capacity. 

   It is good that my computer is functioning well...I mean the transfer to our kitchen makes my networking experience faster. It's going to be a busier neurons than the usual. 

   I've renovated Stolen Moment (V.M.) with all original pieces and the dismantling happen yesterday August 30. I have planned for this many weeks ago and the pieces that will not go to this collections will have to move from my other VM-Visual Manuscripts. 

   I also have a new site called 

Art by FherMission

 http://fherymas.carbonmade.com/

   My mind was erratic yesterday...not the typical bad hair day, it was in fact one of those feelings where I have those excess creative juice that calls for an outlet. So I pick up some of my trade tool...gather all the 8 visual journal in front of me...the tempest swinging from all corners. Smack in the middle between two storms, that was in the News. An opportunity to feel nature on its passionate mood. 

   So I thought I'll be able to come up with new image/s for After Image 8.2...noon time rolled gently, it was so easy I almost fell asleep. In fact I did have some short nap that I did not remember if it ever occur. My mind was wandering, creating, outpouring...into nothing. None. I just held my pencil in mid-air...nothing comes out. "I thought this would be a day filled with colorful outburst."

   The internet session haunting me. There was this gnawing thought I wanted to  eliminate...I don't want to be in bondage with this domination. I'm already a being higher than the common Man. Not a sparring creation but a reasoning spirit. I was made of that material...or immaterial...or non-physical object. Ah! But some man just can't accept defeat...so ego centered they think their worldviews was Bible itself. 

   Now, I would not let my highly evolve brain stoop down on you. I had fairly answered your questioned and debated intelligently BUT...

   Here I have to co-exist with the world that was not totally in agreement with what I have in mind...or at least from lessons I have gathered from experiences. From sources that does not conflict itself. I found only one book that speaks of the past, present, and future...and accurate too. 
   Leave my strangled thought at this moment...better breath on pure love.

Fearless Hand in Expressing Reality

Written on my Visual Manuscript A Whisper to a Scream last year... 

I have asked myself too when it all started. Why exert effort on seemingly worthless pictures and even consume finances without material gain?

   Perhaps the reason is something divine…touching the spiritual realm of my being. An experience with God.

   This visual deluge goes even further than the willingness to the point of exhaustion with sleepless night accompanied with aching muscle and plenty of tears. No mathematical solutions can be equated against insomniac sessions wherein the possible deteriorations of the physique are set aside.

   A creative mind doesn’t respect time – it cycles beyond the ordinary path…it wrestles any adversary and even goes beyond the accepted fact.

   Obviously there are personal gains. The revenue were of many fruits from different avenues – like a prism that that cast varied emotional and mental gains (or shades). Admittedly not all are heavenly pleasures; as nearly half (can’t categorized which is which) were executed in rigorous frustrations. The inner struggle plus the outside forces clashes within me. Thus, I do agree in the synthesis: our greatest struggle is against self.

   If the battle begins inside, the hardest part therefore is to start. Once we conquer our fear and then achievement will follow. That is the pinnacle of joy. Was it the 6^th or the 7^th sense? Previously mistaken as a similar sensation from a sexual climax but now as I deviate there are great gap in between. Dictionaries had not named it yet so we can’t call it as quenching of thirst, a climatic rapture or filled from the brim.

   If the said sensation is yet to be defined, meaning there is no measurement to scale the (I have no option but to use the word again) sensation.

   If extreme pain was called excruciating, can we call extreme understand as Realizationism?

    The heart understands what the brain cannot and vise versa. Maybe a gram higher than gratitude (i.e., helping the blind cross a street or rescuing flood victims) or a cumulative laughter heard on the spiritual level.

   In retrospect we can equate some event or singular moment (like painting sessions) similar to an answered prayer.

After Image, the public visual journal

The original intent of my visual journal are post-mortem analysis of my work and my life so meaning it should be concluded after death. Aside from my disambiguation it is my laboratory of self-evaluations so most of its parts are NOT FOR PUBLIC viewing. That would be keeping my agenda till the Lord decided to call me back. 

   The foremost reason why I am making this 8th visual journal is to let other people know what really is Realizationism in visual manuscript form. 

  

  Now if you want to understand what is a visual manuscript you can follow my blog The Art of Realizationism. 

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