Cold, Sweat, and Paint...

Let me see if I can come up with something...I feel that my brain neuron isn't 100% functional yet. On my forth day under antibiotics for my cold. I feel lighter yet there is no more runny nose.  

   Saturday, August 25, I still have bouts of jolting pain but I have already compromise my service for a Face Painting show for a 7 yrs old girl birthday party. The weather isn't on my side this time...by noon time there was down pour. We had sunshine the past days but how do you explain a very sudden change of mood? Chemtrail spraying? Anyway, I don't want to think about it for now...I need to focus, I have work...I was praying while traveling..."Father, if it is your will then pour your blessing on me."

     Last night, I was shaking and chilling, probably a forty...Yet God allows me a window of strength to fill my duties. My wife was worried that I caught a Dengue fever but the worst thing is my mother's thought that I caught leptospirosis  because of overstaying on the flood while fixing our garden. I can't allow those negative thoughts to distract me now. 

     I have a party to attend...  

    The venue was hard to find...it is just in Sta. Rosa City, only about half an hour ride but it took me an hour and a half. I was disassociated and familiar roads became unfamiliar at that time. Thanks the heavy rain had turn to trickle when I finally reach my destination. Fortunately again, the celebrant was from a known family here in Laguna so I was easily cued to their home.

   It's the hardest face painting experience I ever had...I was fighting fever and trying to entertain the kid as well. Worried that my nose would add to the burden but it seems I was instantly cured from runny nose. Prayer granted, but next time I should be more specific because I didn't asked for the fever to leave me too. 

    So I didn't focus on the task, I mean I set my mind that this is an artwork that I always enjoy doing. I don't want to be label as a bad face painter, so in my best effort I did their faces in the best I could. Well, I guess the organizer was satisfied anyway, he gave me a TIP. 

    There was a Photo-booth nearby so I work fast...I don't know, but each time there is a Photo booth I always match my phase with the computers  printing. 

   After about 4 hours the party ended, exhausted but thanks I wore heavy jacket that gave me sweat on my face. It reminds me of God's word that man's face need to sweat. Now, it has proven to me again how true was God's word. When a man's face sweat it gives relief and it is beneficial to the soul as well. I have to look for that verse one of this day...

   And this reminds me that I didn't really have heavy exercises lately. Sitting in front of the computer for long hours, painting, and the only heavy manual labor that I was used to was kneading dough for empanadas. I have not fulfilled my promise of biking around the neighborhood. 

   That probably weakens my immune system...so it's not dengue or leptos but a stationary lifestyle...

   Well, I was sure it was the heavy manual labor while cementing the road with our neighbor...probably because I stress myself those past days. The stagnant water that was left out by alternating storm needed to be fix. So with the neighborhood guys we fill the pathway with about foot of gravel and soil and the next day we poured cement. For a longest time I haven't really stretch my lungs that far. 

   I needed more of that...

   By the way, I still manage to paint under fever and cold; actually it has given me the time to paint...and here it is... 

Know The SIGNS

Signs and Symbols rule the world not rules and laws. -- Confucius

  This is a follow up article discussed on Why The Devil is into Detail? and by now, perhaps, you are now aware that Satanism and the Occult are very much dedicated into symbols. We are repeatedly reminded by Satan that he is very much active in the world system, and may I remind you again, that Satan pretends (or usurping) to be God...Satan is therefore trying to imitate the omnipresent qualities of God. 

   WE will continue discovering, little by little who are these satanic groups that directly controls the world. Sometimes, corporate logo's are dead give-away with their relationship to the occult, all you need is a  little background on symbolism and you can easily identify them. For example in News media like CBS network, with the Eye of Horus or the All-seeing eye.     
     Yet, most of these groups are cleverly hidden and to discover them needs extra effort to unravel who they truly represents. Many of these evil group pretend to be normal company with convincing honest outer image but once you recognized them, it will make you aware of their real agenda.

Behold a White Horse

   There is one particular powerful logo that seems to fit what St. John described in the Revelations, the first among the four horsemen. 

"And I saw, and behold, a white horse:  and he that sat on him had a bow; and a crown was given unto him: and he went forth conquering, and to conquer." - Revelation 6:2

   Seen as a vision, John is perhaps describing the one you see on the right. 

   A white horse rider was given a crown, or a power, to go forth conquering presumably the world as signified by a bow. 

CFR logo

   Walter L. Wilson wrote something about this first sign as "The white horse probably represents a man-made peace which will be forced upon the world by Antichrist under the guise of religion and righteousness.  It will be a false peace which will not stand." - A Dictionary of Bible Types, Walter L. Wilson, ©1999 Hendrickson Publishers, Inc. p. 233.

   The Latin banner written below the horse is "VBIQVE" which can be found in many of Rome's Ancient coins which means "everywhere" and in English form it reads UBIQUE, where the word  "ubiquitous" came from which means:  present, or seeming to be presents, everywhere at the same time, omnipresent.   
    Today, there is an organization that has as its logo, a man riding a white horse and has set about conquering the nations of the world via military, banking, judicial and political means.   They subscribe to the belief that they alone are the only ones qualified to bring the Kingdom of Heaven to earth through their plans and orchestrations.  Many people now know that organization as the Council on Foreign Relations. 

(SOURCE HERE)

    I had previously blog about CFR how it had been creating havoc by justifying genocides using celebrities like Angelina Jolie, Justin Beiber, among others to endorse its evil agenda and thereby, it is no accident that St. John was able to pinpoint the importance of this group to the coming tribulations of the world. 

A MARK GIVEN?

   Here we can create a Timeline thru the founding of CFR as the first sign, the breaking of the first seals. Following this clue, if the CFR was indeed the first seal, mark, or logo we can align our thinking on this premise and perhaps saw a semblance to world events. 

   I am still on the process of gathering info on this subject matter and if God the Father would allow me to see this revelations, I will share them here with you...I don't want to be too hasty on my theories and be accused later as false flag. 

A WORK IN PROGRESS

   Many of you might have heard about the Satanic seal at the back of the dollar bill, and wonder what is a pyramid doing there? Was there any historical relationship to the founding of America or what does it really signify? Many conspiracy writer and theorist would often begin their introduction to the Mystery Religion using this as telltale sign or valid proof of the reality of this evil  fraternity. Even Dan Brown use the illustration on his novel "Angels and Demons" to draw the real existence of Illuminati's secret society.     

   Undoubtedly, it was one of the most boastful symbolism shown by the Mystery Religion to show their supremacy in world systems. Just looking at the back of the $1 dollar bill, you will discover more than a dozens symbolism, it actually almost compiled all the necessary elements needed to learn about occultism. From the phoenix to the owl, the arrows, 13 stars and olive leaves, the word MASON can be form by dissecting the great seal into pentagram, and much more...(we will have a separate blog on this later) but we shall focus first here on the general importance of symbols and an overview to some of these...so that you become more aware on the real matrix we stand on.

   As described above, the pyramid you saw on an american money was an important Masonic symbol, with the "All-seeing eye" which signify "a work in progress" ...and it's completion was when the cap was finally put in place. That is the very purpose of USA, it will be the great nation where the Illuminati shall complete or initiate its task of One World Government or New World Order as "Novus Ordo Seclorum". Why it was on American currency was of no accident but was an intricate plan to reach that goal. Sometime soon, that one eye (Satan) will sit on the throne to rule the world. It will require the ultimate sacrifice...and I hope my American friends are listening, it will be  devastating to the whole nation that I encourage Christians there to pray for the safety of your  family and friends. The test drive was experience on 9/11 and by now I hope, you had return to God and repented. 

   This message goes out to the world as well, especially to non-believers who are not aware about the second coming of Christ. Perhaps even to Christians who have not yet consider this fact...

THE SIGNS ON SIGN

   A New World Order will rise out of chaos, and a Christ like figure will come to the rescue...wisdom is needed to recognized the Anti-Christ, and one of the telltale sign (which was not often discuss by ministers and theologians) where we can gauge as tool is via Symbolism. The Anti-Christ will appear on this scenario and I pray that none of you my readers will be tricked as I have already laid out some signs to his identity. Pray to God more often please. 

   Most end-time theorist focus on the identity of the beast around the 666 numerology signs, which was just one of the many methods we can use. The internet and libraries of the world had plenty of sources on this subject but there are few who have actually talk on the importance of symbols to identify this person or group. 

   This was just recently revealed to me thru the Holy Spirit and is now conducting some research on this area and of course with a lot of prayers. If symbols is very important and in fact sacred to the secret society, then it is logical to look on this area for clues. Identifying the "mark" of the beast will save us the trouble of mathematics and heavy theology. 

   You can even help me on this research...if you knew any symbols that is identifiable with the secret societies, the occult, or mystery religion, you can message it to me by my facebook account link provided on this site. 

   Below are initial and basic symbols that we can browse directly related to occultism. As we became aware to occult symbols, we will now discover that they are not utilized as mere innocent design to make them artsy but as sacred image themselves that possess power. It was not created just to brag about themselves but it is used to hypnotized the unaware too. So we must be very extra careful. This also assist the demon in identifying who is with them. Here are the main signatures:

	Inverted Pentagram  Used in witchcraft and occult rituals to conjure up evil spirits. Satanists use it 2 points up and pagans use it one point up. Any way it is used symbolizes evil. It matters not if two points are up or one. It matters not if it has a circle around it. It still is a symbol of Satan.
	Baphomet  Unique to Satanism. A demonic deity and symbolic of Satan. Can be seen as jewelryIt is also now being used by the masons. It can be seen on their buildings and the emblems the put on their vehicles to identify each other.
	Another symbol of Baphomet Aleister Crowley wore this symbol as well as the 33rd degree founder Albert Pike of the Masons
	Pentagram  Symbol used in Witchcraft. Represents the elements, earth, wind, fire and water with the spirit surrounding them.
	Hexagram  It is one of the most  potent symbols used in the working of the powers of darkness. Used to work magic. Check this site for info on a six pointed star of any kind. Freemason Watch
	Udjat or all seeing eye.  one of few symbols referring to Lucifer (king of  hell), whom it is though will pass judgment. Below the eye is a tear  because he mourns for those outside his influence.
	All seeing Eye  Believed to be the eye of Lucifer and those who  claim control of it have control of world finances. Used in divination.  Hexes, curses, psychic control and all corruption are worked through this  emblem. This one is a symbol of the Illuminati. Look at U.S. currency. This one is the basis of the New World Order. See Government Propaganda for more info.
	Logo of Time Warner/ AOL!  Notice how it resembles the Udjat and is akin to the all seeing eye! Time Warner has a major monopoly on communications in the world. They control what you see and hear. They suppress the truth. Want to see a High Priestess who is wearing the symbol leading a ritual? Watch this film Mystery Babylon as they cast spells atBohemian Grove in Calif.
	Tau Cross   Symbol of the god Mathras of the Persians and the  Aryans of India. To them, Mathras was an "angel of light" or the "heavenly  light". It is used in modern Masonry under the symbol of the T square
	Italian Horn  Other names....Unicorn horn and Leprechaun staff. Introduced by the Lord Druids of Scotland and Ireland. It is associated  with good luck and good fortune. It is also used to ward off "Maluka" or the  "Evil Eye". It also means satan will take care of your finances.
	Ankh  Symbolizes fertility rites and the building up of lust within a  person. A spirit of Lust is the power of this union of male /female  representations. Also called the Long Life Seal.
	Upside Down Cross  Symbolizes mockery and rejection of Jesus. Necklaces are worn by many satanist's. It can be seen on Rock singers and their album covers.
	Zodiac  Used in satanic and occult worship. Practitioners are  acknowledging their god as Baal or Lucifer. Horoscope signs are included
	Goat Head  The horned goat, goat of mendes, Baphomet, god of the  witches, the scapegoat. It's a Satanists way of mocking Jesus as the  "Lamb" who died for our sins.
	Cross of Nero - Or Peace sign. Another sign that mocks the cross of  Jesus. Also know as "The Dead Man Rune". It appears on the tombstones of some of Hitler's SS troops.
	Yin-Yang  In Chinese philosophy, two great opposite principles or  forces on whose interplay everything depends. Yang is male, light and  positive, Yin is female , dark and negative.
	Scarab Beetle  The dung beetle which is the Egyptian symbol of  reincarnation. It is also a symbol of of Beelzebub, Lord of the flies (satan). Worn by occultists to show that they have power and is a source of protection.
	Satanic "S"  Represents a lightning bolt that means "Destroyer".  In mythology, It  was the weapon of Zeus. Worn to have power over others. Also was worn  by the feared SS of Nazi Germany.
	Satanic Cross  Upside down question mark that questions the Deity of God. Within the occult it is the representation of the three crown princes;  Satan, Belial and leviathan. Symbolizes complete power under Lucifer.
	Star and Crescent   Represents the moon goddess Dianna and the "son of the morning", the name of Lucifer in Isaiah 14:12. Witchcraft uses it the way shown and Satanism turns it in the opposite direction.
	Anarchy  Means to abolish all laws. In other words "do what thou wilt"  the law of Satanists. Used by Punk rockers and Heavy Metal followers.
	Horned God  Represents the horned god of witchcraft. Pan or Cernunnos. Note the thumb under the fingers and given by the right hand.
	Horned Hand   The sign of recognition between those in the Occult. When pointed at someone  it is meant to place a curse. Note the thumb over the fingers and given by the left hand.
	Witch Sign  or Moon Sign  Used to salute the rising moon. Also used by surfers and football teams. This is the sign that the furor should be using to indicate the "Hook Um" horns, Not the 2 above
	666  The number of man. The mark of the Beast. Revelation 13:18
	Swastika or Sun Wheel   An ancient religious symbol used long  before Hitler came to power. It was used in Buddhist inscriptions, Celtic  monuments and Greek coins. In sun god worship, it is supposed to  represent the sun's course in the heavens.

There will be more on this subject, as this area is broad; for those who missed the first article click HERE...

A Picture that Paint a Thousand Words

In most cases I get my inspiration from literary pieces like books, magazines, articles, and poetry...I never thought that the vice versa (or mutual synchronicity) would transpire from my own artwork. To become the source for a poetry to be written was beyond my expectations. It really made my heart override (or expanding within the lung cavity) when one of my favorite romantic poetess Manisha Bathia announce that she was inspired to write a poem from this painting which she call "Behind the Blue Eyes" and thus became the official title of the said work although I intended the same work with another story. To my surprise Manisha captured partially the feelings I weave at that moment...especially the lines: 

"They could never explore, could never touch the core

The wetness confines, tales of sacrifice…" 

  

   

   It just came to me, that whatever we intend in our mind or what's going on deep in our senses will reflect on what ever we do. Perhaps the reflection was there. 

   Telling stories is my foremost goal ever since when I paint, even for  portraits...capturing the feeling, even those fleeting moment into a Monalissa-like masterpiece. 

   To share linguistic abstract-ideas into a single frame are the challenge that I tackle every time I dabble into the medium. Not to sacrifice beauty and balance, yet there should be the necessity of telling the drama...the behind the scene and untold phrases captured in representations of images. Looking for the right brushstroke or shades of various degrees are the main task I dare to encounter. 

   The artist always give special attention to the eyes. In fact, I constantly make a conscious effort to have my selection of models on the basis of "eye" status. The pre-determined appearance of an incoming artwork is already hanging on my brain, then process the available sources to the story rubbing inside my static mind. Resourcefulness will be tested if I can't find the right representations, and sometimes I have to do small tweaking to fit my state of mind. 

   Inspiration, like everything else, is a state of mind, you can either dwell on it or alter its course. We can create inspiration, thus, I am so thankful that out of my work, another inspiration arises. 

   "Behind the blue eyes" is not a portrait, but a symbolic reflection, that anyone can give meaning to. 

   

   Read The full content of the article and poem of Manisha at When I was Lost in Me.  

   

Evidence and Artifacts of Alien?

Let me clarify to you that I have a different concept about Alien or UFO - Unidentified Flying Object. The classification or definition of terms is very crucial because this same evidence have the tendency to be used against a creator God...or the Aliens themselves pretend to be gods. There is a premise that the Anti-Christ will appear as an Alien...however, this data I have not yet confirmed so we will not dabble on that issue here for now. We will just re-define aliens on this blog, how it should be on Biblical account.

   Aliens to me are those described in the Bible. Yes, they are biblical. The Bible simply calls them principalities from the heavenly realms, or in simple terms cherubs or angels. 

   Just as there are diversity of life on earth, it is obvious that the vastness of the universe and that of life in heaven also had variety of beings. The secular world may call them Aliens but to the Biblical terms they are Heavenly Host, Angels, Archangels, Cherubs...etc. They are all Spiritual Beings...meaning they reside on the spiritual plane. Extra-terrestrials or ET are in Bible terms simply called SPIRITS. 

   And that some of these Entities became Demons. 

  It quite interesting also to note here that ancient writings from prophets or by a man of God, who had spend  a great amount of time writing in detail regarding Angels and demons, were NOT INCLUDED in our modern Bible. Was it just coincidence or intentional? 

   Does "Fallen Angels" themselves hinder the inclusions of this writings or gospels? For example the book of Enoch. Enoch had detailed account of Lucifer's expulsion from heaven...it also prophesied the coming judgment to the fallen angel who had conspired with Satan. In fact the Book of Enoch was even quoted by New Testament writer like Paul and Jude, so why the Canon considered it as uninspired writings? The testament of Levi also hinted this judgment of fallen angels and Testament of Judah talking about how he conquered giants...

   There's seem to be a hidden agenda behind this intentional hiding of this fact. Why archaeologist are showing as only fossils of dinosaurs and not that of giant men? By the way, the Book of Enoch was specifically written for our generation, so why an important article should be hidden from believers in Christ?

   The video you are about to watch is intriguing. It will change your concept now about ancient men as uncivilized, unlearned, and even barbaric. This will show a system, or technology, or one may call artistry that is far advance than what we know. Perhaps, this is the meaning when King Solomon said "There is nothing new on earth and in heaven anymore..." All had been known already...the future and the past are basically the same. The intelligence and technology before the flood were basically the same. Jesus revealed he will return very similar to the condition  of Noah's time...

Matthew 24:37-39 ...'But as the days of Noah were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be. For as in the days that were before the flood they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day that Noe entered into the ark, and knew not until the flood came, and took them all away; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.'

My First Animation

Inspired by our young animators while me and my children were browsing YouTube. It started as a challenge made by my son and again inspired by ARTner Melissa's beautifully rendered Video Blog Poetry (MY LOVE SONG)

   I said to myself, "Hey! I can do this..." while watching a clip obviously done by a student. This is like a child play...

   I return to my childhood. With little help from technology, luck, and enthusiasm. I pick my cellphone...roam around in our house to look for an inspiration...

   Aha! What else?! My art materials...

   I have some experiences with stop-motion animation during video shoots for weddings around a decade or so, when me and my sister started A Photo-Video business...that's enough experience, I guess...
   The video came out good...well, actually nice...even if it needed lots of redefining...as expected for a first timer.:) 
   Well, enough with the introduction...

   

Building Inspiration

Since yesterday I've been trying to get inspired...I did not waited but created my inspirations. I pick a color pencil  and chose this time the manuscript "Stolen Moment".....to make as an ignition work as usual. Yes, these are what I called ignition pieces or starters...so I can build up a confidence or to be exact summoning enough energy to paint a thematic work.

   The usual process start with a couple of doodles and then sketch process until images are form...but it does not always appear as I wanted too...there are times when frustrations hit me. But I always, no I mean never discard them totally since they will still provide source for future explorations...

   I feel not being able to serve the purpose of my personal existence when I'm not creating an artwork...at least a simple sketch will suffice. So after hurdling some detour that only happens on my brain I made these two item below...

   Why portrait of women? It's the easiest connection I can do at this moment...but it is not always the case, I also browse and add items on my visual diaries for boost...often simultaneously....

   I think in a few hours or day I will have new inspiration coming. A painting worth sharing.

Synchronized Poetic Rendetions

"Poetic Intentions"
A beacon of hope, a candle that suppose to be speaking
Empty rhetoric of a man with only so little to give.
The shimmering glow has come to exhaustion...

There’s a super typhoon threatening to hit the Philippines. As if intensifying the memory of typhoon Ondoy two years ago, this one Pedring already making an early gnashing…although it was predicted to make landfall by tomorrow. So I wrote a blog and you can hit this link IN MEMORY OF ONDOY. But before the blog, I was charge by an intense desire to paint…

   The idea was formed about a day or two ago, and I had made a rough sketch of it yesterday but there were some art projects that came plus I still have to make Empanada to sell. By the time all errand was finished, I was too tired to face the said artwork therefore I indulge myself on the internet, visiting of course Tagged ArtLover Group…play Iron-Grip Marauders, Edit some of my sites, and browse some article…

   So the said work was re-started this noon. When it’s done I feel satisfied and ready to brag it on cyberspace that I call “Poetic Intensions” although the intent was not really met after it didn’t came out nice on photograph. Well, the usual problem with my camera: the image were blurry and it doesn’t show the beautiful color mixing I had achieved on this piece; especially the central figure which is the candle with mouth—a surreal approach that symbolizes an advocacy that I want to share being the beacon or light for mankind.

   It is quite frustrating after more than a dozen attempts taking shots; twisting, adjusting lights, white-balance and contrast but to no avail. The only consolation is looking at it directly on my work. Now, it’s a great deal to me now to acquire a new camera. That thing wouldn’t be possible at the moment. I’m so broke and there are some necessary debts to finish.

   Sometimes, I was thinking I should go back working and abandon my quest for self-employment. This is a tough season for my entrepreneurship and my other sidelines aren’t that booming too… I must have been wrong in my decisions…

   All is accumulating now after about 3 years since I leave Print Town. It must have been a brave move but not wise at all.       

   Now the beacon is fading…its shimmering glow has come to its exhaustion… 

  

In moments of failure

I will think of past successes.

ILLUMINATION 031 moment in stills

   Probably its time to enter the state of illumination again...I need some assessment on what I have achieved and have not done...or fail to do. Yesterday, I obligated my self to be inspired...I have to paint. I toss, scan, scrutinized, and input some item on my visual journals. All eight of them get attentions...nothing much. It's more of getting energies than making real progress...I have to move...

   Found myself in our veranda in deep thought...

  You do have the power to affect your experiences by paying attention to what you focus upon. Do you know that you are emitting signals that the universe responds to? It's like we're all emitting radio signals that go out into the universe and match us up with anything on the same wavelength, bringing to us the circumstances and events which make up our lives.

   The signals you emit are made up of your thoughts, beliefs, and the emotions that these create within you. You're experiences tend to match what you've got your focus upon.

Jesus revealed that not just earthquakes but "great earthquakes in various places" would herald His soon coming (Luke:21:11). And immediately before the time of His return there will be a mighty earthquake unlike anything experienced in all of human history (Revelation:16:18). The only safety at that time will be close proximity to God and Jesus Christ.

   What if I go for a still-life? So I took my phone and took photo of our veranda...specifically the file of pails and basins...the afternoon should be captured. A rare event in rainy season. I also took photo of my daughters play slippers. And then gather my things once again and begun painting...

   I just float in the moment...and have to smile inside after it's done. 

  As if returning to self-discovery period that begun around 1985 (probably continued till 1987) which I am seeing now as the course of my artistic tendencies at this moment. After these images I might go into painting genre or daily common activities that has been one of my vision before I was sucked-in making symbolism or surrealism. 

   My strokes are different now as results of experiences and visual degeneration. Experience on the basis that I am well verse now with behavior of paints and pigments...plus gained abilities to resolved errors or obstacle. One detour is resources...

 Those who die in accidents or natural disasters are not necessarily greater sinners than those who survive (Luke:13:1-5). 

  Still baffled why Catholics still ignore sound doctrines. Do they need glasses or must learn how to read. The scriptures are clear and no heavy theology needed to understand that the Vatican practices Satanism. 

  Personal tragedies or calamities are not necessarily the result of one's sins (John:9:2-3).

   I have to move my computer away from my studio because I am not getting good signals. Whew! At least here in the kitchen I was getting faster load...just good enough. Maybe I can play again Terra Militaris and Pearl Heroes.

   Here's a site that might interest you; it's about the evil of RCC.

Satanism in The Vatican

   My mind was erratic yesterday...not the typical bad hair day, it was in fact one of those feelings where I have those excess creative juice that calls for an outlet. So I pick up some of my trade tool...gather all the 8 visual journal in front of me...the tempest swinging from all corners. Smack in the middle between two storms, that was in the News. An opportunity to feel nature on its passionate mood. 

   So I thought I'll be able to come up with new image/s for After Image 8.2...noon time rolled gently, it was so easy I almost fell asleep. In fact I did have some short nap that I did not remember if it ever occur. My mind was wandering, creating, outpouring...into nothing. None. I just held my pencil in mid-air...nothing comes out. "I thought this would be a day filled with colorful outburst."

   The internet session haunting me. There was this gnawing thought I wanted to  eliminate...I don't want to be in bondage with this domination. I'm already a being higher than the common Man. Not a sparring creation but a reasoning spirit. I was made of that material...or immaterial...or non-physical object. Ah! But some man just can't accept defeat...so ego centered they think their worldviews was Bible itself. 

   Now, I would not let my highly evolve brain stoop down on you. I had fairly answered your questioned and debated intelligently BUT...

   Here I have to co-exist with the world that was not totally in agreement with what I have in mind...or at least from lessons I have gathered from experiences. From sources that does not conflict itself. I found only one book that speaks of the past, present, and future...and accurate too. 
   Leave my strangled thought at this moment...better breath on pure love.

Re-focus on the illumination

For quite sometime I've diverted my attentions on the moment...breathing in once again Realizationism or the understanding of things I have been awaken from the not so distant past, maybe around 5-6 years ago. 

   With this renewal I think I'm having the grasp once again...the direction of my evolution. The process had been worthwhile but painful...even filled with chaos. Why was that? Well, I've taken the pleasure road as detour and so my vision was temporarily muddied. You see, sometimes the effect of sins can go a long long way ahead to your future even if you already repented and live a brand new life...a struggle was inevitable but I knew God will resolved all these since I've already put my trust in Him.

   As one of the many steps I'm doing now is re-connecting to beauty...of seeing values and energy in everything. Living or non-living things. Sending love energy even to not lovable individuals or I should say difficult people.

   ⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart       and lean not on your own understanding;      ⁶ in all your ways submit to him,       and he will make your paths straight -- Proverbs 3

   Been busy...went to Batangas province for a show. The usual thing I get blockbuster hit for my face-painting. The venue was a resident  near seaside and a stream right in front of their house. There were some gun shots and I don't know if they are military or politicians but it seems a natural thing there aside from the town known for balisong (Filipino knife)...banging for salute? Well, what I've notice are the good values of this town...kids are respectful. 

   Another illumination scheme for a better processing is reading and editing my early blogs which are less serious, well let me say serious but not quite investigative in nature...giving links and sources, just like real journalist and a professional writer. Just in case someone accuse me of poorly written post. So I think it would be worth reviewing my old post...specially earlier post when I started blogging. Some are just hurried reactions without taking much time to stipulate or elaborate. 

   I had some blog on line-up right now...and will definitely consume more sleepless nights or will require more of me but I have family affairs that needed attention too...so just bare with me if I get too slow in progress sometimes. Plus if my art will require more of my attention too.

   Moment moves so I can not say I will stagnate on current events...particularly some new trends arising on the newsroom. In all these I will just focus on moment as they appear on my dashboard. 

   I have some on-line list of reactions to make too...one is about the controversial CCP exhibit. About finding another realizationism writer although on different terms...have to read more. 

   Probably I'll be needing a week to reconfigure my early blogs, and that is dependent once again on the speed my internet connection is supplying me.

   Just stay tune.